Anticipation

Last night was by far one of the most miserable nights yet. Poor Ryan must have said to me 100 times “you look miserable” and honestly I was. My back and stomach were crampy I had a dull pressure headache and felt completely helpless. I had 8 or 9 contractions during my 3pm monitoring and 6 during my 9pm. The nurse got a pain killer from Dr. Rowe and brought in which helped me at least get comfortable enough to sleep for a solid two hours last night without having to get up. From there I was up every hour going to the bathroom measuring and recording my “output”.

It’s only 6:30 right now and the anticipation of not knowing if we will have to deliver or not today has been killing me. I just want to be able to say ok this day at this time so I can be prepared and have everyone who wants to be here here. I think that’s been my biggest stress out, but know its going to be ok. Plus I really hope that if I have to do the c-section today that I can shower before hand. I am in the same stupid shorts and shirt I put on Sunday which grosses me out big time. I must have prayed a 100 times last night that God be with my boys regardless if they come today or not. Ryan and I both can’t wait to see their little faces, but I can hold out if it means they need to buy some more time in my tummy to grow.

Dr. Rowe should be by in the next hour or so. I’ll update the blog/facebook status just as soon as I can. Hopefully we have good fluids and all is fine for yet again another day of not knowing when they will make their appearance. They have been rather antsy or at least Reece has been for the last few days. I think that’s his way of saying “I can’t wait to meet everyone because all I have been hearing about in here is all the people who love me!” Thanks for all the prayers, calls, texts, emails, love & support!