I haven’t updated in forever, but who has time for that anymore? Not me! Life has been like a rollercoaster lately. Its like every time we make it up one hill and start going down, we end up climbing another and sometimes we are thrown in loops or at least that’s how I feel. I started “work” on Monday. It’s not really work, but it is a bunch of workshops this week and then staff development for the next two weeks. I love being at the school and I work with a really wonderful bunch of people. I am really excited about school starting and just thinking about all the fun things I will be doing in my classroom this year makes me smile. I didn’t think being away from the boys would be all that bad and a big part of me was looking forward to going back to work just so I would be out of the house. However, it is starting to take its toll on me.
Thank God the boys are at home with my wonderful mother so I know they are in a safe and loving environment and when I am away I don’t worry about them. It’s just hard being away all day and coming in around 4 or 5 when it’s cram time for dinner, bed and planning for the next day. Not to mention it’s the worst time of day to be around the boys. After about 4:30 you can count on fussy babies because they start to get hungry and it’s too late in the afternoon for a nap, which has made dinner time lately a complete battle.
It’s 6:45 and they are in bed which means if it’s anything like the last few night, Jason will be back up by 10. It’s either let them sleep now or listen to the scream and try and keep them up. It’s frustrating because the time I am getting to spend with them is not the least bit enjoyable and it makes me sad because I feel like I miss out and all the sweet and cute things they do. Today when I came in I told myself I am not doing school stuff or anything but playing with them. As it turned out they fussed and fussed and sat at the door crying. They love being outside so I ended up taking them for a walk (and nearly melted) and then headed back when they got fussy again. By that time it was dinner time and they were so sleepy at this point (its only 6pm) that they don’t eat but 5 or 6 bites and then pitch a fit again. Right now I want to scream. I just want to play and love on them and all they want to do is cry cry cry!
I am sure this is typical behavior for both them and me, and I am sure with time we will all adjust. On the bright side of everything I don’t work weekends and I have enjoyed the late night wake-ups despite me not sleeping much, because then they are rested and are no longer monsters. I just want my sweet baby boys!
Ok off that rant…I don’t have any new pictures. We are camera-less. I was using my Dad’s but the battery finally gave out and I will probably have to wait until my birthday to buy a new one. I am pretty sure moisture got in ours while camping a few weeks ago. It’s sad because every month I have a file of picture and in 13 months there maybe 15 or 20 pictures…oh well. Alright well I am off to shower, iron clothes for Ryan tomorrow, and hopefully go to bed early after I work on a presentation for a bit. Ho hum…thrill thrill!
And on a side note, a huge thank you to my Mom whose last day at work was last Friday. The boys couldn’t be in any better hands and if they didn’t have you, I would be a complete basket-case!
